also, design, gaming, culture, comics, funny, photography, writing, or a large variety of other things. (i’ll even look at a fashion blog, if its male centered)
So, tell me about your blog or a blog your recommend and I’ll check it out.
Anon or not, just lemme know, k, loves you!!!!
Soon I won’t be here any more, in three weeks I’ll either be homeless (no joke) or sitting in my new house (if I can find it). A little bit after that my best friend will either help me become non-homeless or move into our house. But then the summer will begin and it will end shortly there after.
Then I’ll be at UNI, Cedar Falls, a real college rather than this Iowa Central crap. That’s when it’ll all begin. I mean, I wish it could begin now, I wish I could find a girl, fall in love, make something out of a relationship with her. But whats the point? I’m moving away and I don’t want to do a long distance relationship, my families tried that….and my family cheated. Mind you, I know I’ll never be the one to cheat, I just don’t think I could, when I fall…I fall hard…like…I could see myself being the kind of guy to pop the question after a few weeks if I knew that I loved someone.
But I just don’t want any of that to happen right now, or well…unless I know it’ll be the way I want it. You know, the girl who’s funny, creative, can be completely random, understands part of my thought processes, can understand what I’m saying in this little entry, I want her to love music, to want to know about Pokemon or comic books because those are things I love. I want her to want to get to know me, to be willing to help me become a better man for her but at the same time, trying to understand what it is that makes me want to be better.
The last girl I dated…I changed for her, not even in a bad way, and she didn’t make me do some of it, but it got to be too much. It taught me that you can willingly change for someone but it can be too much and they get used to it and want more and more. I never want to be in that situation again…where I have to choose between my best friend, who is like my brother, and a girl who I care about. For all of the girls reading this, never make someone do that. A guy needs his guy friends, his friends who are girls, they need those to cope, to understand that there is more to reality than you.
But either way, my adventure will be beginning in a few months. Hell, I have orientation in two weeks and maybe I’ll meet a girl there, maybe I’ll see her, maybe she’ll see me, our eyes will catch one another’s and time will stop. For a split moment it will feel like the world has paused around us, we’ll flash through the future, from the first word we say to one another to the time where we’re sitting on our porch in rocking chairs together.
This is my life now, and a new chapter is about to begin. What’s happened in my past has made me who I am today, and honestly, I love being me. I like who I’ve become, sure, sometimes I’ll relapse and I’ll start to find out if its cheaper to find pain killers somewhere or to just buy a pack of razor blades, but that doesn’t happen as much anymore. I’m enjoying life, and whatever it throws at me, I’ll hit a home run, I’m sure of it.
This is my life.
