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Soon I won’t be here any more, in three weeks I’ll either be homeless (no joke) or sitting in my new house (if I can find it). A little bit after that my best friend will either help me become non-homeless or move into our house. But then the summer will begin and it will end shortly there after.

Then I’ll be at UNI, Cedar Falls, a real college rather than this Iowa Central crap. That’s when it’ll all begin. I mean, I wish it could begin now, I wish I could find a girl, fall in love, make something out of a relationship with her. But whats the point? I’m moving away and I don’t want to do a long distance relationship, my families tried that….and my family cheated. Mind you, I know I’ll never be the one to cheat, I just don’t think I could, when I fall…I fall hard…like…I could see myself being the kind of guy to pop the question after a few weeks if I knew that I loved someone.

But I just don’t want any of that to happen right now, or well…unless I know it’ll be the way I want it. You know, the girl who’s funny, creative, can be completely random, understands part of my thought processes, can understand what I’m saying in this little entry, I want her to love music, to want to know about Pokemon or comic books because those are things I love. I want her to want to get to know me, to be willing to help me become a better man for her but at the same time, trying to understand what it is that makes me want to be better.

The last girl I dated…I changed for her, not even in a bad way, and she didn’t make me do some of it, but it got to be too much. It taught me that you can willingly change for someone but it can be too much and they get used to it and want more and more. I never want to be in that situation again…where I have to choose between my best friend, who is like my brother, and a girl who I care about. For all of the girls reading this, never make someone do that. A guy needs his guy friends, his friends who are girls, they need those to cope, to understand that there is more to reality than you.

But either way, my adventure will be beginning in a few months. Hell, I have orientation in two weeks and maybe I’ll meet a girl there, maybe I’ll see her, maybe she’ll see me, our eyes will catch one another’s and time will stop. For a split moment it will feel like the world has paused around us, we’ll flash through the future, from the first word we say to one another to the time where we’re sitting on our porch in rocking chairs together.

This is my life now, and a new chapter is about to begin. What’s happened in my past has made me who I am today, and honestly, I love being me. I like who I’ve become, sure, sometimes I’ll relapse and I’ll start to find out if its cheaper to find pain killers somewhere or to just buy a pack of razor blades, but that doesn’t happen as much anymore. I’m enjoying life, and whatever it throws at me, I’ll hit a home run, I’m sure of it.

This is my life.

• 1: Full name
• 2: Zodiac sign
• 3: 3 Fears
• 4: 3 things I love
• 5: 4 turns on
• 6: 4 turns off
• 7: My best friend
• 8: Sexual orientation
• 9: My best first date
• 10: How tall am I
• 11: What do I miss
• 12: What time was I born
• 13: Favourite color
• 14: Do I have a crush
• 15: Favourite quote
• 16: Favourite place
• 17: Favourite food
• 18: Do I use sarcasm
• 19: What am I listening to right now
• 20: First thing I notice in new person
• 21: Shoe size
• 22: Eye color
• 23: Hair color
• 24: Favourite style of clothing
• 25: Ever done a prank call?
• 26: What colour of underwear I’m wearing now?
• 27: Meaning behind my URL
• 28: Favourite movie
• 29: Favourite song
• 30: Favourite band
• 31: How I feel right now
• 32: Someone I love
• 33: My current relationship status
• 34: My relationship with my parents
• 35: Favourite holiday
• 36: Tattoos and piercing i have
• 37: Tattoos and piercing i want
• 38: The reason I joined Tumblr
• 39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?
• 40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?
• 41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?
• 42: When did I last hold hands?
• 43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?
• 44: Have I shaved your legs in the past three days?
• 45: Where am I right now?
• 46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?
• 47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?
• 48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?
• 49: Am I excited for anything?
• 50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?
• 51: How often do I wear a fake smile?
• 52: When was the last time I hugged someone?
• 53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?
• 54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?
• 55: What is something I disliked about today?
• 56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
• 57: What do I think about most?
• 58: What’s my strangest talent?
• 59: Do I have any strange phobias?
• 60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
• 61: What was the last lie I told?
• 62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
• 63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
• 64: Do I believe in magic?
• 65: Do I believe in luck?
• 66: What’s the weather like right now?
• 67: What was the last book I’ve read?
• 68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?
• 69: Do I have any nicknames?
• 70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?
• 71: Do I spend money or save it?
• 72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?
• 73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me?
• 74: Favourite animal?
• 75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?
• 76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?
• 77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?
• 78: How can you win my heart?
• 79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?
• 80: What is my favorite word?
• 81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr
• 82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?
• 83: Do I have any relatives in jail?
• 84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?
• 85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?
• 86: What is my current desktop picture?
• 87: Had sex?
• 88: Bought condoms?
• 89: Gotten pregnant?
• 90: Failed a class?
• 91: Kissed a boy?
• 92: Kissed a girl?
• 93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?
• 94: Had job?
• 95: Left the house without my wallet?
• 96: Bullied someone on the internet?
• 97: Had sex in public?
• 98: Played on a sports team?
• 99: Smoked weed?
• 100: Did drugs?
• 101: Smoked cigarettes?
• 102: Drank alcohol?
• 103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?
• 104: Been overweight?
• 105: Been underweight?
• 106: Been to a wedding?
• 107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?
• 108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?
• 109: Been outside my home country?
• 110: Gotten my heart broken?
• 111: Been to a professional sports game?
• 112: Broken a bone?
• 113: Cut myself?
• 114: Been to prom?
• 115: Been in airplane?
• 116: Fly by helicopter?
• 117: What concerts have I been to?
• 118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?
• 119: Learned another language?
• 120: Wore make up?
• 121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?
• 122: Had oral sex?
• 123: Dyed my hair?
• 124: Voted in a presidential election?
• 125: Rode in an ambulance?
• 126: Had a surgery?
• 127: Met someone famous?
• 128: Stalked someone on a social network?
• 129: Peed outside?
• 130: Been fishing?
• 131: Helped with charity?
• 132: Been rejected by a crush?
• 133: Broken a mirror?
• 134: What do I want for birthday?
• 135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?
• 136: Was I named after anyone?
• 137: Do I like my handwriting?
• 138: What was my favourite toy as a child?
• 139: Favourite Tv Show?
• 140: Where do I want to live when older?
• 141: Play any musical instrument?
• 142: One of my scars, how did I get it?
• 143: Favourite pizza toping?
• 144: Am I afraid of the dark?
• 145: Am I afraid of heights?
• 146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?
• 147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end?
• 148: What I’m really bad at
• 149: What my greatest achievments are
• 150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me
• 151: What I’d do if I won in a lottery
• 152: What do I like about myself
• 153: My closest Tumblr friend
• 154: Something I fantasise about
• 155: Any question you’d like

This is just an idea but its something that I’ve been thinking about for the past few days or so. So, I’m just gonna put the idea out here on my personal blog for all of you lovely people who follow me to see. So, are you ready? I can’t hear you! Okay, enough of that.

The blog is going to be named something I haven’t thought of yet, probably the Bucket Project or something along those lines, I dunno, I’m up for input on that. But the purpose is to try and get people to break away from their boring routines and try and experience the wonderful creation that was given to everyone. Life.

So, what I would do would be to create a new blog with the title I come up with, I’d share it to you guys so that you all followed cause I want to get everyone to find this and try and join in. Then, once everything’s set up I’d start releasing list items as well as vlogs (probably youtube ones shot with my crappy laptop webcam). I’d let people submit ideas for what to do and then I’d challenge everyone to do them with me, everything would be legal and fun and I’d hope that people would share their stories, post videos of them in the act, or whatever else happens.

As for items, they’d be a bucket list of sorts created by me, my friends, and of course, you guys, the followers. I only have a few ideas for list items in my head right now but I think this could end up being really fun. What do you think?

(hint: one item on the list is to kiss a complete stranger, another is a flashmob)

So, tell me your opinions, I can’t ask any more questions today cause sometimes tumblr is stupid to me, but message me, reblog and leave comments, spread the word so we can start workin’ on the idea soon!

BLASPHEMY!!!!!!!! Star Wars references are always appropriate.

lovin’ the mash